tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-58638252011-09-28T19:45:17.019-05:00“I’m inspired by everything. I write about anything. Anyone’s story can become your own — that’s as true in life as it is in art.” - Lis HarveyHeathernoreply@blogger.comBlogger5831100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-44418685538023662952011-02-15T13:05:00.004-06:002011-02-15T13:27:37.854-06:00

I had an interesting day yesterday.I made a list of things I wanted to get done, and I cranked through them. I actually managed to get nearly all of them finished. My guitar lesson didn't happen because my teacher didn't show. I guess she has a new job and we hadn't checked in about changing the time. I am not too worried about rescheduling, she's good about that, it's just a matter of finding

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-16093664039254171602011-02-14T12:09:00.003-06:002011-02-14T12:16:58.882-06:00

I had a dream last night that it was spring! All the forsythias & rhododendrons just popped into bloom on one beautifully warm day, and as I was driving around town I was so filled with delight as I passed each blooming shrub. They seemed to be extra bold, flowering explosively, it was shocking and amazing and wonderful. I wonder if any of it had to do with some big pieces falling into place

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-51505076545314162122011-02-09T01:46:00.002-06:002011-02-09T01:49:11.936-06:00

AngerFearFrustrationJudgment Pressure StressImpatienceTiredWaste of timeWaste of energyUnfairBurdenBacked into a cornerMy own damn faultWhat's important?

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-20636280444559472882011-02-02T03:10:00.001-06:002011-02-02T03:10:13.387-06:00

1. It's 2:22 am. I have the insomnia thing going on but it's much different than with the medicine. 2. I've been off the meds for about a month. Switched to Chinese Herbs & accupressure. 3. I haven't lost any pounds really this month, but I have gained any really either. To be able to maintain while coming off the pills is pretty huge. Also, I have most definitely lost inches, and have been going

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-24115439383335523362011-01-18T03:37:00.004-06:002011-01-18T03:42:09.974-06:00

Partially from an email to a friendMy trip to Colombia was so great, it was wonderful seeing my in-laws and playing with my nephews, being in warm climates (even a Caribbean island for a couple days!) and getting out of my routine in general. I have some pictures up here if you are interested, but no pressure! http://www.flickr.com/photos/hum97/Coming home to freezing cold temperatures, and

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-21593316611289084132010-12-31T19:31:00.002-06:002010-12-31T19:35:06.925-06:00

Some of the points here really resonated with issues I've been working on lately, so I thought I'd keep a record to refer to later.From: Capricorn Outlook for 2011Capricorn12/22 – 1/19Year 2011 CareerWith your ruling planet Saturn continuing his exalted trip through the sign of Libra, your career continues to take precedence over almost anything. That is until a grand monopoly of Aries planets

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-60948214276861376462010-11-08T10:48:00.001-06:002010-11-08T10:48:38.972-06:00

So. The election is over. More time this week. In theory. Going to Colombia a week from tomorrow. So that means a lot of getting ready stuff needs to happen. Time suddenly used up!My shoulder is sore. From barista-ing. I think that means my technique is wrong. I hope it's something that can be worked out in a massage. :( And then I hope I can fix my technique! I don't know if part of it has to

Heathernoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-48587972843721845242010-11-08T08:50:00.003-06:002010-11-08T08:50:38.786-06:00

Spent the better part of a week mostly not reading as part of an exercise from The Artist's Way. Totally broke down tonite under the stress of trying to get a song submitted for a contest. I definitely got a lot out of the amount of "not reading" that I did do already and I still have two more days to get back on track. GoodNESS!!I did walk my bike up to the gas station & put air in the tires. It

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-78378105506588836862010-11-08T08:50:00.001-06:002010-11-08T08:50:09.420-06:00

Context is such an interesting thing. I've gotten a lot of interesting context & perspective in the past few months around music stuff. Going to a different festival over Labor Day Weekend where the distinction between performers & audience was more acute. Sitting around the campfire and having the one guy who hosts house concerts say how he was so nervous to perform in front of the "artists",

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-7363512444484023352010-10-21T01:19:00.004-05:002010-10-21T01:25:59.254-05:00

It occurs to me that in a way, I've been doing more updating of a personal nature on my music blog. Not sure if it's of interest to anyone over here, but just in case, here's the link:http://heathermillermusic.tumblr.com/Lots of songwriting contests and such and posting my latest demos there.Loving the fall. Got myself a brown corduroy jacket and feel pretty spiffy about that. :-)Read my

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-61719122841280723822010-08-22T19:47:00.003-05:002010-08-23T03:02:00.888-05:00

I am so not used to doing these... Good for me to push myself out of my box a bit though I think.Video blog about getting back from my 3rd annual trip to Rocky Mountain Song School in Lyons Colorado, including my newest song I wrote there! Lyrics:WITHOUT A PLANBack in Ohio, we plotted out five yearsWe couldn't make it through that first oneSold everything that didn't fit inside a rental

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-75562428251275239182010-08-22T19:35:00.004-05:002010-08-22T19:44:57.172-05:00

I want youto stop being so hard on yourselfWould you say these things to your closest friend?To any friend?I didn't think so.Would your closest friends allow you to say these things about yourself, if they knew?Who gave you permission to be such a jerk? So cruel?No one deserves to be so put downNo oneThat doesn't mean you're getting a free passThat you get to stop working on thingsOh noIt might

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-52356357834379653562010-08-20T04:19:00.001-05:002010-08-20T04:19:38.112-05:00

It's hot and I can't sleep and it's not medicine and it's not caffeine because I didn't have either today. I think it might be a little bit heartbreak and frustration and dramatics...Got back from song school a couple days ago and it's a lot to integrate. The contrast between the life there & the life here is so drastic, but I don't think it has to be that way if I would only DO more art/writing/

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-77869397633776518972010-06-26T02:16:00.001-05:002010-06-26T02:16:01.292-05:00

It's raining again. Tomorrow is going to be a nutty day. Too many committments! All important! Work, wedding, graduation. And all I want to do is get to know this new community I discovered online!I joined a songwriting contest. A just for fun/bragging rights sort of thing. 4 rounds & people get eliminated each time till it's a head to head thing. I made it through the first round kind of by

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-26323816627875785432010-06-19T01:07:00.001-05:002010-06-19T01:07:54.865-05:00

Made it to 45lbs lost. Lots of people are starting to notice and say nice things. The fear does creep in, when we start to talk about how. Because their struggles & failures & relapses & excuses & fears all come up too.But I have to keep reminding myself that this time really IS different. I really AM working on the emotions behind things, bit by bit. Claiming more of me for me. I want it to be

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-19750801782246226762010-06-19T01:00:00.001-05:002010-06-19T01:00:01.732-05:00

Getting frustrated/nervous that I haven't worked on my music homework in weeks. A lot has been happening, and a lot of it good, but I'm not sure why that doesn't come out as a priority. I think it comes up again, the waiting and wanting someone to tell me it's good enough. That I'm not wasting my time. I'm so willing to waste my time on so many other things! What the heck? :(

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-40465160283402554962010-06-09T02:48:00.001-05:002010-06-09T02:48:38.464-05:00

Worked at the polls 6am-10:45pm by the time we returned all our supplies. Some people don't understand what a primary is & got really pissed that they had to change or declare a party. Sigh. I guess in one sense they are lucky to get to vote at all, since it's really about each party choosing their candidates for the Nov ballot.Great, now that it's over I figure out a better way of explaining it

Heathernoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-81802927432362932302010-06-09T02:43:00.001-05:002010-06-09T02:43:26.491-05:00

BalanceHypocracyMoneyLifeMusicRitesGiftsCeremony TimeSpace50IntellectPrideEgo WritingPromotionPerspectiveSlowing downSpidey-senseFreedomFearSacrificeRewardAbundance Release

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-37912129204548188632010-05-30T02:52:00.002-05:002010-05-30T03:02:29.603-05:00

Portland was awesome.Spoiled me a bit though. Eating out every day/meal. TONS of restaurant choices. Coffee at least once a day. Not keeping track of food & exercise. A real vacation, a real break from the day to day.Left me wishing for a little more of all that when I got back home. I know that that much indulgence everyday long term would NOT result in happiness, I have no doubts. And it's

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-33301989341194077322010-05-25T11:08:00.001-05:002010-05-25T11:08:36.400-05:00

Just posted the thing I wrote on the plane but forgot to post when I had wifi. Today is our last full day in PDX. It has been fun. Super cool city. The graduation was early timing-wise in terms of the whole trip, so we have had a couple days to just chill/explore, which has been awesome.Yesterday we went to a saltwater soaking pool. It was so nice we stayed there for probably close to 3 hours!

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-21142450195897037132010-05-25T10:46:00.001-05:002010-05-25T10:46:20.474-05:00

Spent the morning folding laundry & packing. Got to the point I had to stop and toss a bunch of stuff in bags to repack later. Ran around all over the square and Everbody's, picking up groceries for various things and paychecks/money owed, etc. Realized I hadn't eaten lunch and wasn't likely to have time to stop so got a scone from the cafe. Stopped at my mom's to get trained to give Rite 2.

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-48739370753765569292010-05-12T02:53:00.001-05:002010-05-12T02:53:53.654-05:00

I thought I had done this great job clearing out a bunch of boxes and bags in my office and the laundry room. I was getting really close to having good usable space in my office. Then I decided to put my old laptop case away in the closet where we keep luggage. I noticed a box for hubcap/wheel cover things that go on the car I sold like a year ago. Took those out so we could get rid of them. Then

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-8678068306565376232010-05-09T17:42:00.006-05:002010-05-09T20:35:49.894-05:00

OK, I've been trying to justify things and pretend all day, but I can't help it, I'm bummed.House concert last night. The gal was amazing. Classically trained since she was 5, and it showed in her skill and fluency in making the keys express what she wanted to say.7 people showed up. (Plus 3 little kids, who were adorable and very well behaved, but didn't add to the donation jar. Not that I

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-4999291365595971442010-05-07T03:58:00.004-05:002010-05-07T04:25:08.568-05:00

So, I thought I was doing all good with money.I paid for my song school balance.I bought a ticket to Portland.Then I actually sat down and looked at finances.And I realized that I have consistently for the past few months been spending $200 over what I'm making.Not good.Frustrating! Especially since I really feel that I've pared it back to bare bones in terms of spending for the most part. I

Heathernoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-88660130297866308302010-04-17T20:02:00.003-05:002010-04-17T20:06:20.804-05:00

I've been examining things and I am semi-cautiously saying that I should be able to make it to Portland!! I've been quite good about not spending my tips the past couple of weeks and I have a good little cash stash right now, and that plus the various other little things I'm doing and have done are making me more comfortable about being able to afford this!!!!I still have to be on the alert, and

Heathernoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-21087183037711380442010-04-14T03:17:00.005-05:002010-04-14T04:07:48.554-05:00

So, my work situation is pretty good right now. I am covering the basics, I'm pretty happy with the amount of time I have available to do other things, I'm learning and growing, I don't really feel a pinch in terms of wanting things that money can buy on a day to day basis. I am however, looking for ways to manifest cash for travel. My college friends, who I have managed to see pretty much

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-52840408657158396702010-04-11T03:12:00.001-05:002010-04-11T03:12:12.681-05:00

Time seems to be barrelling down on me. I'm getting ahead of myself too, thinking tomorrow is Monday already, but no, I've got a whole glorious Sunday ahead of me, with a class chat in the evening as the only solid committment of the day. Still have too many things I'll try to cram into it no doubt. Constantly feeling behind in something or another. It's been so warm these days that the trees

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-50901434180855574612010-03-22T03:36:00.004-05:002010-03-22T03:52:53.158-05:00

Need to write. Need to sleep. Giving myself 5 minutes. Timer is set.Had an intense week, mostly brought on by my own head. A show to promote, stress that no one would come, trying to figure out how to make sure it was well covered without making people crazy/feeling spammed. Feeling like I didn't have much support. Like I would let the people down. Running around, posters, etc.Show came.

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-30280310646821198232010-03-14T03:12:00.005-05:002010-03-14T03:41:18.349-05:00

So the check in with the Dr went well. She reminded me of some things I already know, and she knows I know, but I don't know why I haven't been doing them. Refined a few points. I forgot to ask some questions (which always seems to happen to me in Dr offices! I just blank!) but nothing that I came away with feeling urgent about. And my cranky mood of the few days previous really lifted after.

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-13542139757382707922010-03-10T01:49:00.004-06:002010-03-10T02:26:34.241-06:00

Been having a couple of down/rough days. Not sure what that's about. Wrong time for PMS. Maybe just thoroughly tired myself out from staying up waaaay too late for the past couple of weeks. It's been 2 months since I started with the diet and I'm feeling a bit worn down on it at the moment. Hungry actually. Which just started happening in the past couple of days too. My mom suggested that

Heathernoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-89244378411699987462010-03-03T15:01:00.005-06:002010-03-03T15:13:29.446-06:00

I was talking with my friend who I have been helping out as a caretaker about guitar and how I struggle with getting myself to practice, how I couldn't figure out what was my deal with that.She suggested to try just practicing, and rather than squash those rebellious or guilty or whatever feelings, just allow them to come - feel them through, let them play out. Rather than trying to think it out

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-17399019582946646272010-02-25T11:50:00.005-06:002010-02-25T12:12:37.566-06:00

I forgot to write about the Valentine's Day party we went to. It was a good experience in many ways.First of all, it was a party! The friend who threw it usually has a xmas party but he was out of town this year so he had a Valentine's one instead. :-) It was fun to see people we hadn't seen in a while.But what I really want to write about because it was more interesting to me, was how I

Heathernoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-49597831822160514362010-02-25T02:42:00.005-06:002010-02-25T03:03:36.739-06:00

So, at the risk of offending people who might have a different idea about me, and in order to tell about this realization I had today, I am going to share - I don't usually make the bed. Like, 19 times out of 20 probably. I don't really see the point. There are a lot of other things I want to be spending time on, and if we have people over, it's easy to just shut the door. I usually only make

Heathernoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-25051636624535386402010-02-14T21:54:00.004-06:002010-02-14T22:49:55.523-06:00

1. Wear my ring on the proper finger 2. Make a Valentine card.Re 1: It's not 100% comfortable yet, but month ago it would have been a struggle to get on, and I would have started panicking to get it off immediately after, which would include stuff like running my hand under cold water and using soap. Tonight I can get it on and off easily, and had it on for at least an hour without it bothering

Heathernoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-91949595256203712522010-02-13T02:26:00.003-06:002010-02-15T10:41:33.693-06:00

We were putting up plastic on the laundry room windows tonight and as part of my continuing de-clutter mission I picked up a stack of papers and went through it. Ticket stubs, newspapers from 2007, financial things, manuals, receipts from our UK trip.I found it. The resume I used to get the "big job" all those years ago. Looking it over, I don't feel so bad or cranky that they couldn't find the

Heathernoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-79013069739748816012010-02-03T02:29:00.003-06:002010-02-03T03:34:11.309-06:00

So... it was supposed to be 3 weeks of brunch. But the regular guy got stuck in the country he was visiting, so in total it's going to be 5 weeks! Luckily last time I split the shift, so it wasn't quite as hard. Hoping to do the same this week, or at least have someone do the cleanup part.But coming off a weekend of double brunches, I went into a week of rehearsals/tech every night except

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-68047324101928241952010-01-25T03:45:00.001-06:002010-01-25T03:45:28.507-06:00

3 weeks of double brunches. My body is mad at me. I don't know how he does it, the usual guy... But he will be back next week, so it's just my Saturdays, which are never as busy. So far at least. They may get busier. So many ideas for shaving off minutes, not sure how many will work. I hope the new things we put in place will go smoothly without me and actually be a help. Went to a party on

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-10490842758275899832010-01-21T00:29:00.004-06:002010-01-21T00:45:20.891-06:00

...was not fat. But she thought she was. That makes me sad. She wasn't tiny either, but come on!See those tiny rolls on the side? The little hint of a belly? She was soooo embarrassed by them!What was she thinking?I know one thing she thought. That all the other girls were so much smaller. That she'd never get to that "magic number" all the charts said she would be. It was just too hard.

Heathernoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-1157003697372631562010-01-19T00:56:00.003-06:002010-01-19T01:07:41.644-06:00

Oh, this is confusing, because I haven't gone to sleep yet. I was going to say I got a massage today but it was really yesterday, as in Monday afternoon. It was amazing. I think I fell asleep for part of it because I don't remember her massaging my left leg but I woke up when she started on my other leg and I could feel my toes were greasy. heh. Anyway, that was a much needed thing. I used

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-44808068797452827282010-01-18T00:50:00.005-06:002010-01-18T01:43:09.611-06:00

I am tired.Two days of cooking in a row. Today was the super marathon. I just don't know what we can do to make it go faster for people. 45 minutes is too long to wait for food, but we're cooking as fast as we can. Not enough space, not enough griddle space.I counted 50 order sheets. Some sheets had more than one item on them... Of course people don't come in an even flow, but saying they

Heathernoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-35453233935163546932010-01-15T02:10:00.004-06:002010-01-15T02:53:07.126-06:00

This has been my theme song in the past few days.I'm trying to get rid of things.Just a little bit at a time. My mom does a thing where she tries to get rid of 3 things per day - trash, recycle, donate, whatever, just getting them out of her way. I'm not doing that exactly, but I am trying to pick little things. So far it has been clothes. I've been holding on to so many clothing items hoping

Heathernoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-58323844508111323522010-01-12T01:30:00.005-06:002010-01-12T02:28:02.094-06:00

So. hrm. What a day.Found out I didn't get a part in the play. It's ok, I'm really looking forward to watching it! and I appreciate that they told me clearly and right away. Other productions I've auditioned for have sometimes not figured it out for weeks, and then sometimes just not said anything to the people not cast, which is weird and ambiguous and frustrating. So there, clean, done, no

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-20148702536858178202010-01-10T23:51:00.004-06:002010-01-11T00:48:37.620-06:00

And so it is. 2010. I have survived the holidays. Now time for the post holiday catch-up on things I meant to do (send cards?), plus try and focus on the new things I want to do. One of the things I want to do is get clear on what my ideal income producing situation would be. Because:1. That way when someone asks me what I want to do, I can tell them and they can put out feelers for me too2.

Heathernoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-42274643911742812132009-12-29T16:48:00.004-06:002009-12-30T01:27:25.683-06:00

So. Saturday. I think it went pretty well. I ended up singing with someone who was already in the show and already knew and loved the song. He's much more experienced than I am with guitar so it was nice to have him play and just be able to focus on the vocals and projecting. He was doing a different version of the song, so I'm not sure exactly how it fit together when we sang the same last

Heathernoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-30392007337564112132009-12-24T01:37:00.006-06:002009-12-24T02:09:29.069-06:00

So apparently the directors thought my song sounded "too thin" and want to add people to it. There's a girl who plays banjo back in town for the holidays who is going to see if she thinks she can do it and call me in the morning to figure out more stuff. I'm mad at the timing. Why did they let it go this long before "auditioning" me? Now it's 2.5 days before the show, and one of those days is

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-35337128281005172882009-12-23T01:20:00.003-06:002009-12-23T02:19:17.767-06:00

Dang, I went to Everybody's and forgot the ingredient I needed for the tarts. I have very nearly all the other two types of cookies I prepped last night baked off. One batch in the oven and one more after that. The problem with mass producing lots of little cookies is it takes a LOOOOONG time. Sigh. They are tasty though!The Cafe did it! Opened today! They still have work to do finishing

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-78280450622421174622009-12-22T02:41:00.002-06:002009-12-22T02:46:08.075-06:00

Up way too late. Stayed late at a friend's to watch a movie, got home to a confirmation that my interviewee IS calling in. Which is good, but I had slacked on writing the blog because I hadn't heard from her. So up late futzing around until I was able to get myself to do the blog. Sometimes are harder than others, probably a lot tonight because I was already freakin' tired before starting.

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-88138315844065046272009-12-21T01:41:00.004-06:002009-12-21T01:58:42.326-06:00

I think I've mentioned before, but I freaking love the internet.I have a song to play, it's a big deal, in front of people, I don't want to mess it up. I've been cobbling together chords from various guitar and uke tabs to come up with something that works, that I can play, without having to train a bunch of new chord shapes into my hands in the few short weeks I have had to rehearse. I finally

Heathernoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-56920624643366201242009-12-20T00:01:00.005-06:002009-12-20T00:15:32.800-06:00

Shared a table space with my bro at the indoor market today. Ended up with $9 after paying $6 for table space, and was there/working on being there for about 7 hours. Not great, but that's more cash than I've seen in a while. Sigh. There were somewhere in the neighborhood of 50 vendors, and somewhere between 6-8 of them were selling jewelry - LOTS of competition. I had meant to make more

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-66398468855533165282009-12-17T17:53:00.001-06:002009-12-17T17:58:09.663-06:00

I just posted a demo of my new song "Winter Time" on my ReverbNation profile as a free download! Follow the link and then next to the song title, click the little blue icon of an arrow pointing down to get the mp3!http://www.reverbnation.com/heathermiller

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-45972123954198540202009-12-17T00:12:00.001-06:002009-12-17T00:12:48.370-06:00

It's been a crazy week actually when I think about it, if you go from Tuesday to Tuesday...My crazy today though involved running around and getting poked all morning. First some labs to check on my B12 and folic acid & thyroid. Did pretty good there, not hardly fainty at all. Then up to otm for what I thought would be a fairly routine physical (though rather redundant) to fill out a form to

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-60541156035488092692009-12-14T01:22:00.003-06:002009-12-14T01:31:19.756-06:00

Wow. Had a whole actual weekend for the first time since what, April or so? Went to a concert in IC on Friday night, slept in on Saturday, went to a friend's house and decorated cookies, went to a play, slept in and went out for brunch Sunday, had a friend over to play music and went to some neighbor friends for dinner and to share Peru experiences. Not that my days really would be that much

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-55161109465820404562009-12-11T00:12:00.005-06:002009-12-11T00:20:13.145-06:00

I gave myself an assignment last night, to write, record and post a seasonal song. At the last minute I added one more requirement, that I use my partial capo. It came out pretty fast, maybe 20-30 minutes. I'm still liking it a day later, so that's a good sign I think, and it's gotten a pretty good reception on Facebook. In a moment of inspiration while recording, I threw on my hat from Peru

Heathernoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-70715311644636880932009-12-09T23:05:00.004-06:002009-12-09T23:48:24.042-06:00

Well, we didn't ever get the super crazy snowstorm they had us all worried about, but it HAS been snowing off and on for a couple days now and we've got quite a few inches.Tuesday:Wednesday:I have to admit, I'm just the tiniest bit disappointed it didn't happen! They really had people all freaking out and stocking up. I guess it doesn't hurt to be prepared, and it IS really cold and you DO have

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-59013291146996098162009-12-07T22:41:00.002-06:002009-12-07T22:53:33.472-06:00

It's hard to conceive that just yesterday, YESTERDAY, I walked up to the civic center for a Christmas concert in my fleece and a hat and gloves and I was fine, and today the ground is all covered in snow!Between the awesome concert and the white landscape, it's got me in quite the Christmassy mood, which is good. I think the snow without the concert preceding it would have had me mopey.We're

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-88843154903661641002009-12-05T22:14:00.003-06:002009-12-05T22:29:58.308-06:00

I stayed in and made this gingerbread (cake, not cookie kind) recipe tonight. Inspired by the samples being given out last night at the At Home Store during the Art Walk. Mine did not come out quite as moist and dark as theirs (I don't even know if they had their recipe available, but it was so zoo-y in there it would have been hard to get last night), but it was darn good, and warm, and with a

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-31132464006865305332009-12-04T17:33:00.004-06:002009-12-04T17:57:50.117-06:00

Peru was amazing. So many, many things, I think I am still processing. It was not your typical tourist trip, our guide took us to many spiritually/energetically significant places, little power points within the ruins and temples that are crawling with tourists. Many of those points were also documented scientifically with little round metal plates. I wish I remembered what those were called,

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-54455071426953161122009-12-04T13:34:00.006-06:002009-12-04T13:54:43.322-06:00

I've lived here for 25 years and I still don't know how to do winterI've got everything I needI mean, come on, I've lived here for 25 yearsI have the wool socks and the slippers and the fingerless gloves, the scarves and the sweaters and the down comfortersI have the space heaters and the plastic to cover the windows (what a pain in the ass) I have friends with woodburning stoves (who clearly, I

Heathernoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-38366834308287812352009-11-19T17:46:00.003-06:002009-11-19T18:04:54.928-06:00

Things I saw today in Peru: Mc Donald's, Burger King, Starbucks, KFC, Payless & Golds Gym. Also lots of gorgeous old churches & plazas & fountains & the ocean & 200 something year old bones in the catacombs below St Francis church. Creepy!!There are lots of street vendors, which I'm used to from Colombia, but one guy had these butterflies that you wound up, I think with a rubber band, and then

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-70398538675676192532009-11-18T23:59:00.000-06:002009-11-19T18:09:52.409-06:00

One of G's soccer buddies from Peru was on the same plane as us. Six hours! I watched 3 movies & liked them all. Tonight hostel, tomorrow tour w/ G's friend.

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-70471904466183249182009-11-17T23:59:00.004-06:002009-11-18T02:27:38.780-06:00

So close. Peru tomorrow. Lots of packing to do. Eeps. Laundry to finish. Radio shows to finish. Pray I'll be able to post blogs from Peru. Some power source for our internet and land phone and everything is dead. So we're using the internet through our phones. Pain in the arse. Kinda like dial up or something. At least we have that, and it's REALLY making me prioritize what I do

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-33531767306962708822009-11-16T23:59:00.000-06:002009-11-17T00:34:52.177-06:00

Trying to figure out how freaked out I am versus perhaps how much I over-expect of myself? I mean, I got stuff done today - I did a pre-record for my radio show and edited that interview. I made caramel. I did blogs for my live radio show going on tomorrow. I did my 3 pages for Artist's Way. Ate soup. Took vitamins. Got coffee at the cafe. Explained what book indexing is to the owner.

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-19819644050297177552009-11-15T22:51:00.004-06:002009-11-15T23:16:23.005-06:00

I think I'm kind of in travel panic mode... as in ignoring for the most part that I'm going by procrastination. I stayed up til nearly 4am last night after the movie marathon watching tv shows online. Woke up at 11:30. Got to talk to a friend on the phone. Decorated a take-out style box for the booties I made and got ready for the baby shower.Baby shower was sweet. Really nice house, amazing

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-63805462779767011082009-11-14T23:59:00.000-06:002009-11-15T22:51:36.664-06:00

We'd been talking for a a while with some friends about watching all three Bourne movies at once and we finally did it. We did a bunch of cleaning to get ready, G especially since I had to work at the cafe all Saturday morning. It's nice to have the house clean and I was able to knit a pair of baby booties for a baby shower during the movies! We had lots of tasty snacks and J ordered pizza too

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-49333474179468521872009-11-13T22:13:00.003-06:002009-11-13T23:07:57.957-06:00

Wow, writing while the day still is!Had a good meeting with a client, submitted some invoices, so we should be getting some money soon! Then L took us out to coffee, saw a couple other friends at Rev's. (It's inevitable!) Came home for lunch, then had a massage at 2pm. So good, so needed! I still feel all melty nice. Then helped at the gallery for a bit to get ready for the big sale.Had two

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-62446161970834791032009-11-12T23:59:00.000-06:002009-11-13T00:19:40.460-06:00

So maybe instead of posting every day this month, I have *A* post for every day this month, even if it's not on the actual day. In the past couple days I've gone in and back dated a few mini posts from when I was traveling. I think it's fine. The main point for me really is just to be writing more, and to show myself I can do something again. We'll see how it works when I'm in Peru. My

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-18131019773978451552009-11-11T23:59:00.001-06:002009-11-12T00:37:54.359-06:00

Met with a potential client this morning, came home and made a nice lunch, took a nap.Then went to Ottumwa and returned 3 of the 4 "maybe" dresses I had gotten for the wedding. I got compliments on the too big dress that I was returning even just in the bag! (I got two of the same dress in different sizes to make sure which one fit). Such a good dress, so wearing it again! As I left JCP, I

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-55030500313258146452009-11-10T23:59:00.004-06:002009-11-12T00:45:44.262-06:00

Sheesh. So much for NaBloPoMo. Last night I figured out how to set up my phone so I could get internet to my laptop, and I think I could probably do it again, but I hadn't figured that out in CA, and Nana's alarm system armed at 10:30, not to mention her computer was dang annoying to use. Still on IE 6, and in super big huge text mode. I didn't change anything, just did my best to use it as

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-62344364687064772232009-11-09T23:57:00.001-06:002009-11-13T00:01:23.272-06:00

Showed my grandma a mini slide show of a few of the things I've been doing this year, and gave her some business cards from those various things as well. She was happy to keep the cards so she could show them off to people.Got to the airport and returned the car with no problems. Had time to eat my lunch before going through security. Got aisle seats on both flights, much more comfortable!

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-1637470956182645232009-11-08T23:59:00.001-06:002009-11-12T00:44:34.257-06:00

Wandered around a super fancy shopping mall today. I saw a pair of Prada flip-flops for $195 and held a shoe that was $1450! (well technically the one shoe must have been $725 since it was part of a pair...)Bought myself a box of fresh raspberries and ate them all.I think if I had $1450, I still would have gone for the raspberries.Also had a family party with a few aunts and uncles and cousins

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-97277695934058832009-11-07T23:59:00.002-06:002009-11-12T00:41:07.938-06:00

Wedding was beautiful! In a big atrium in with a stream/fountain running through. Couple was glowing, ceremony went smoothly, kids did a good job even with a few minutes ahead of rehearsal. Hooray! Success!!

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-60260529586381892192009-11-06T23:59:00.000-06:002009-11-07T09:49:22.940-06:00

The schedule was to eat lunch and get our nails done, but I didn't realize what a high class area we were going to! We had lunch at a Mexican place and I got a jicama salad that came out looking like a Jenga tower!! I'll try to remember to post a picture of it when I get home. The we went to a VERY fancy spa - bathrobes, fruit, lemonade, couches sauna, hot tub,showers, even a shaving station

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-12414674970484086562009-11-05T23:59:00.000-06:002009-11-09T00:21:23.643-06:00

Woke up 4:30 amDrove to Des MoinesDropped car off at cousin's & got ride to airportForgot to take my pefectly bagged liquids & gels ziplock OUT of my carry on, DUH!Had to have my bag inspected and re-scanned.Ended up in center seats both flights.Greatful that a Denver layover makes for two bearable length flights instead of one short one and one too long one.Quiche & asparagus for dinnerGrandma's

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-83502998611995975212009-11-04T23:59:00.000-06:002009-11-05T08:06:04.432-06:00

WorkGot dress, fits -yay!AuditionsGallery Packing Sleep?

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-25036266237962881372009-11-03T23:50:00.003-06:002009-11-04T00:11:02.396-06:00

Tomorrow is my last day before my trip to CA and there are so many freaking things I need to do in it, it's scary. I came home from my Artist's Way meeting and proceeded to panic by procrastination. I should have at least started some laundry already. I just don't feel like staying up late to cram stuff in, and I'm quite sure I won't cram anything productive in anyway, so those hours will be

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-91383100403967202042009-11-02T00:44:00.001-06:002009-11-03T00:52:21.920-06:00

of stuff to do. It's bizzaro to think that I'm going to be out of town for most of this month! I go to CA on Thurs, back for a week, and then out to Peru.I've made bunches of lists, I just hope I can get through them all. I seem to be adding more to them faster than I am checking things off. Today did seem pretty productive for the most part.Tomorrow most of my day will be spent manning the

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-89462233739231380882009-11-01T23:42:00.004-06:002009-11-02T00:08:17.394-06:00

NaBloPoMo. Let's see how I do. Going to Peru for the second half, so it may be just too plain hard, though at least right now I know I'd like to blog about the trip. Maybe do the thing where I write offline and post later when I get an internet connection. Maybe just do my best during the time I'm here. Oh yeah, going to CA next week, so more traveling. Don't think my Nana has internet at

Heathernoreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-72220687238128091962009-08-31T02:36:00.003-05:002009-08-31T02:55:58.296-05:00

Got myself a new toy yesterday after work. Managed to slide in to the music store a few minutes before it closed. It's actually my xmas present from my parents. Long story short, I couldn't find a video camera at Christmas time that would work with my old laptop, and in the time since then I now have a webcam in my new laptop and also been borrowing a video cam from my bro that he seems ok

Heathernoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-23733635824274154902009-08-22T01:32:00.004-05:002009-08-22T01:55:11.469-05:00

I'm back from my trip to Colorado. Which was amazing. Lots of learning, breakthroughs, connections, heart openings, transformations etc, etc. I'm having a hard time adjusting to being back home though. The contrast from being in a community of like-minded people in full on CREATIVE mode for a week is pretty drastic.Not to mention the to-dos in a bunch of areas and the disaster of the house is

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-57861800968360483152009-07-01T18:38:00.002-05:002009-07-01T19:26:56.290-05:00

I just interviewed Juli Crockett and Lisa Dee the co-founders of a band called The Evangenitals on my radio show this week. Started almost as a joke where they sang 2 Christmas carols and one original at an open mic in LA, they soon grew to a full band with a rotating cast of players, including two Fairfielders at the moment - David Hurlin and Matt Ticciati! I think some people might get

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-78422258688926654392009-06-26T02:47:00.004-05:002009-06-26T03:16:22.988-05:00

With some potential musician clients, I need to ramp up my game with the social networking tools out there. Who better to test something on than myself right? Let's see how this little puppy works... One more, I think with this one you have to sign up for my email list to get the free download since it's a "Fan Exclusive". Hehe. OK, just tested both of them out and they seem to work.

Heathernoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-35062547128413831462009-06-03T01:22:00.001-05:002009-06-03T01:43:23.210-05:00

These two appeared in my Twitter stream, so appropriate after my last post and the comments to it."The reason why I dance is because I like to dance, not because I'm good at it." - Dave Matthews"Skill to do comes of doing." ~Ralph Waldo Emerson

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-14396770950250180762009-05-27T23:09:00.003-05:002009-05-28T02:44:51.525-05:00

Oh yeah, so that emotional roller coaster I was mentioning in the last post, we took a little downhill turn today.  I'm still overall very much happier than I was a few months ago, exciting things are happening, little jobs are coming in for a little bit more money, I'm keeping really busy and being more social, and I almost wouldn't register this little blip except that I'd kind of like to keep

Heathernoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-81470059235178664462009-05-18T16:47:00.003-05:002009-05-18T17:20:41.035-05:00

It's been happening to me more and more these days.  I'll be in the middle of whatever crazy thing I may be doing, and I'll stop, and smile inside and say to myself, "I'm happy."I don't know what it is exactly.  Maybe my stars have changed.  Maybe I'm doing more things that feel "productive" and that makes me feel better about myself in general.  Maybe it's spring and the green and the birds and

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-91263703544674513842009-05-05T01:26:00.003-05:002009-05-05T01:43:29.097-05:00

Had another one of those moments, listening to a FAN-FREAKIN-TASTIC song and simultaneously having my heart explode with joyous celebration/appreciation while shattering into a sloppy mess of despair and fear that I'll never be able to write a song as good/powerful/moving/amazing as that one.  And I know I'm not supposed to compare myself to others, I'm supposed to just BE myself.  And I know the

Heathernoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-70549301972980487332009-04-27T18:39:00.004-05:002009-04-27T18:47:02.229-05:00

Cross post from MySpace:So, I'd say the concert on Saturday was a success! We could have had more people show up, but I sure worked my butt off promoting, so I don't know what else I really could have done. We had a lot of competition as far as stuff going on around town, plus it was raining! The people who DID come were totally awesome, supportive and attentive and we all had a blast! Thank you

Heathernoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-34891356062013100102009-04-26T17:52:00.006-05:002009-04-26T22:21:22.388-05:00

A friend of a friend made a very good analogy the other day that still has me thinking. We were at a little birthday party and someone was commenting about how Facebook was so overwhelming with all the crazy applications and everything, and this guy said "Facebook is like a buffet - some people sample everything, some people pick and choose. It doesn't mean both aren't enjoying and getting

Heathernoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-53318073817281424132009-02-25T16:18:00.000-06:002009-02-25T16:19:44.585-06:00

StrawberryWe gathered round the big blue ceramic salad bowl on the floor, full to the brim with strawberries. Washed and wet, each plump red fruit glistened softly in the afternoon sun streaming in from the window. The little green leaf tops sprang out in different directions like punk hair-dos, and made for perfect little handles as we all reached into the bowl in turn. This was our second or

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-77202743144283573052009-02-20T10:57:00.002-06:002009-02-20T10:58:44.577-06:00

Uh, 3 out of 5 ain't bad? It's been a rough week.Dining RoomThe room was warm from the heat of the oven that had been cranking all day, and added to that was the body heat of so many extra people packing in. Crammed across the built in buffet were dishes of every shape and size and depth. A tall ceramic salad bowl with serving spoons poking out like rabbit ears was spilling over with piles of

Heathernoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-76971233190575371802009-02-18T18:31:00.001-06:002009-02-18T18:34:18.735-06:00

OK, so enough people have been recommending this that I finally watched it, and I was really inspired by it! If you haven't seen it yet, here is the author of Eat, Pray, Love talking about creativity and how to help manage the fears you may have as a creative person:

Heathernoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-15462161153795107422009-02-18T09:50:00.003-06:002009-02-18T09:52:13.200-06:00

OK so I missed yesterday because I had my radio show. I still got up before 9 though. Maybe I'll do one on Saturday to make up for Tuesday.ScissorsThere is something SO satisfying about that shhhhick sound that a pair of heavy metal scissors makes when cutting through hair. The dozens of tiny points of resistance succumbing in succession to the sharp blade edge. I’d almost want to become a

Heathernoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-42948873621175036232009-02-16T09:14:00.003-06:002009-02-16T09:20:41.152-06:00

My goal for this week is to get up no later than 9 am and do Object Writing for 10 minutes, Monday - Friday. The idea is to pick an object and write about it, staying as sensebound as possible, for 10 minutes and 10 minutes only. Set a timer and STOP no matter what when it goes off. Since I seem to hold myself accountable to blog goals, I thought I'd post them here.ChopstickI slid the blonde

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-63275462181197750752009-01-25T14:21:00.003-06:002009-01-25T14:47:58.427-06:00

As I pulled on a pair of fleece socks over my SmartWool socks this morning, I found myself marveling at the fact that only a week ago I was happily pulling a new Hawaiian sundress over my head.  I think it's time to admit I've been in somewhat of a culture/weather shock since coming home, and it's only been softened by the fact that I don't really have to get up and go out anywhere in the

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-15660051385107067562009-01-23T21:40:00.003-06:002009-01-23T21:46:22.643-06:00

One of the fun things about being in a writing class is - I'm writing more! LOL. We are supposed to write for timed period based off an object word that is revealed when the timer starts. Doing it in the morning "wakes up the writer for the day" and gets ideas flowing. (it's really true, and awesome, rather than thinking in Tweets and Facebook status updates, I'm thinking in stories,

Heathernoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-7823062820948533182009-01-22T14:24:00.002-06:002009-01-22T14:27:14.773-06:00

Cuz I don't have time for a proper post, exerpts from a letter to the girls:Talking about the economy and tenuous jobsI think a big thing is to be practical and realistic while not buying into the fear and freak out that so many are feeling. I know some people have doubts about Obama being able to fix everything that's gone so wrong, but I think the positive attitude he instills alone is a huge

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-62063309425087579112009-01-05T15:35:00.003-06:002009-01-05T15:38:19.181-06:00

(Huge post I just went off on in my MySpace blog. So much has been stewing around in my head lately that I feel like I might need another blog that just deals with the music biz/social networking aspect of things, but for now it's going here too.)I've been running into a lot of artists in the past year who bemoan that they "have to do all this darn internet stuff!" They're having people tell

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-20304053532526442162009-01-01T00:48:00.002-06:002009-01-01T00:56:11.785-06:00

So one time, back in June I guess it was, I told my friend who always sends me great links that she should start a blog. Because the whole world should know about her great links, not just me. So 6 months later, Nandi has hit her 100th post! Whoo Hoo! And she's having a contest to celebrate! All you have to do is go to her blog and leave a comment on this post about something you've done

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-57082171743264908942008-12-21T01:42:00.004-06:002008-12-21T02:03:47.981-06:00

It's funny, you know, posting things to the web. Sometimes you work really hard on things, put a lot of time and attention on them and want to share them with the world, you post them up and no one comes. No one responds. It's like shouting your head off to an empty room.And then other times, you just do something random and innocent and they flock to it. I have a video on YouTube, just a

Heathernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-68156760657686560132008-12-10T11:10:00.004-06:002008-12-10T11:25:11.404-06:00

Woke up to sunshine and the chorus of Steve Seskin's song in my head: "This is my day, this is my day, this is my day"It totally turned me around during the rainy rainy miserable wet Folks Fest. And I think it's working again now. Yeah!I woke up, meditated, played some of my songs, gave a treat to the bird and ate breakfast. All this before signing on to the computer. Feels much better that

Heathernoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5863825.post-7578114809009350742008-12-10T02:32:00.004-06:002008-12-10T02:54:56.657-06:00

This is the day to day me. This is the doubts, the confusion and complaining. This is where I don't care, where I don't censor or try. (at least not as much and not as hard)I have all sorts of parts and pieces. I try to stay positive, but sometimes it's hard. Sometimes the frustrations need to get out somewhere.Sometimes I just think it's all hormonal.But I never want to invalidate the

Heathernoreply@blogger.com1