Overload!

Too many jobs, too many jobs!

Or perhaps just not enough coordination/communication.

Or perhaps just too many jobs.

I went to the bank and got some loan apps so my mom can co-sign with me for a car. Now I just have to find the damn car. I thought this little craptastical Honda was going to solve my problems for a few weeks, but it's only made things worse, and I'm not willing to put any more time or money into something I hate so much and could break down on me at any minute anyway... I mean, if I'm going to have to get it checked out at a mechanic, and register the plates, and possibly get bits of it fixed up, I'd MUCH rather do it once for a car that I like and will be reliable and I'll have for the next few years anyway than do it all for the POS car and then AGAIN for a good car later. The ONLY, ONLY thing the crap car has going for it over a "new" car is that it's sitting in front of my house.

Having a birthday party for G tomorrow. Need to go shopping for that. He says he's doing it for me. I guess I really don't understand people who don't like having a fuss made over them for their birthday's. Most people who say "Don't do anything!" actually really like whatever you do, and some of them even are disappointed if you don't do anything! Go figure. I think it will be nice. Soup, cake, puja. Simple, but celebratory! Gotta figure out a few more surprises for the day as well.... He deserves so much more from me. I've been a real cranky bear lately and I hate that. Must get everything under control so I don't freak out so much, because he seems to bear the brunt of it. It's just that I trust him to catch me when I fall, which is great, but has to get tiring... And I would catch more, but he doesn't seem to need it so much... So I guess the way to pay him back would be to take better care of myself, rather than offering to take care of him?

Of course I forgot about my coaching call with Lori when I planned the party. Duh. Now I have to see if I can reschedule... I'm really freaking out about this SELP course. Like do I have time to do it, or is it just going to be all rushed and nutso like schoolwork? and is it worth all the driving?

Shit's going down over email about our improv group. We're all realizing we need to up our rehearsal time in order to do a show we all feel happy about. I think it's a much needed kick in the pants actually, I just hope no one's feeling are getting hurt, because there's no need for anyone to take blame for anything. We're all just uber busy and coming up against normal challenges for any type of group. But I think good stuff is going to come out of it. We're hot, talented, connected, funny, creative, etc! It's just serving that up in bite size pieces that's the trick, and I think Celeste can help us with that. Seriously. I am so in love with everyone's brilliance and bravery in our group, and when I tell people about it I really get them excited and inspired. So yeah, I hope I didn't come off as down on our group... I wish we weren't losing Kevin for a while, but I think our newbies kinda scared him a bit after last show... Nandi is just like that, but I don't really know Lucas that well. But I think part of why our group has been so easygoing so far is that nobody has really had anything to worry about on the relationship level. We've all either pretty much been too young, too old or taken, at least from one half of any potential match-up. Wow. That's huge actually. Nutso. Relationships and acting - sticky, tricky, icky! SOOOOOOOO glad I'm out of THAT bucket of worms. Gracias mi amor!