Huh

Trying to figure out how freaked out I am versus perhaps how much I over-expect of myself? I mean, I got stuff done today - I did a pre-record for my radio show and edited that interview. I made caramel. I did blogs for my live radio show going on tomorrow. I did my 3 pages for Artist's Way. Ate soup. Took vitamins. Got coffee at the cafe. Explained what book indexing is to the owner. Got my photoshop books down for a friend so she can come by to pick them up later. Communicated with the publicist of my interview tomorrow about last minute details, and with the person I interviewed today about street team possibilities. (all that not necessarily in that order).

Things I did not do:
Laundry
Pack
Clean
Organize the guest room (luckily it turns out S is coming the day after we get back, instead of while we are gone...)
Make edited interviews into hour long shows.
Write and schedule blogs for pre-recorded shows.
Work on my novel :)
Go to dance class tonight
Make lists of all the things I need to do before leaving

I do believe that if I wasn't quite so freaked out, I could have at the least done some laundry today... I could have started it and still worked on the writing stuff. I did start my blog earlier only to have wordpress freak out on me and delete everything when I pressed save. bastard. I was pretty mad so it took me a while to start over.

OK, so I DID do a lot of things. But I am also still definitely freaking out. I had a moment of such nerves while eating lunch that I just couldn't eat anything for a while till I calmed down. I know if I'd just make some lists it would help a lot, but somehow I haven't been able to do it. It's really a good thing we don't have much junk food to eat in the house or I'd be eating all of it... That doesn't make much sense compared to my lunch episode, I know... doh.

It's all good. In a couple days I'll be on my trip and pretty much all the stuff I'm worried about, I won't be able to do anything about, and I'll have to just let it go.