It's been a crazy week actually when I think about it, if you go from Tuesday to Tuesday...
My crazy today though involved running around and getting poked all morning. First some labs to check on my B12 and folic acid & thyroid. Did pretty good there, not hardly fainty at all.
Then up to otm for what I thought would be a fairly routine physical (though rather redundant) to fill out a form to apply to be a care provider, but it turns out I had to get a tetenus shot and a TB test! So two more pokes there. And I have to go back on Friday for them to confirm I don't have TB and get my form signed finally.
I hope this works out, cuz that's a whole lot more running around and needles than I would want to do for nothing!!
Then a lunch with the girls, belated friend's birthday thing.
Then worked a bit on a brochure, I really hope it works out!! I was having a beast of a time with Photoshop so I installed Pages '05 on my Mac and that SEEMS simpler but I don't know if there are going to be any compatibility issues when it comes time to print...
Then tonight rehearsal for the Motown show. I felt a little rough but geez, it was my first time working on the songs & some of the people had done it before and/or are just faster at picking it up.
Also heard that someone else wanted to do the song I'm doing for this month's show, but they told him it was already taken.
It's just such a huge, huge deal for me, to get up and do this, not to mention it's going to be on the stage with all these regular diva performers (more in singing style than in attitude), and this being my first real time to solo in a show like this, I really want to do myself proud.
It's hard to distinguish how much is ego flipping out hardcore and how much is I really am being walked on and need to stand up for myself. Because some of the stuff is just goofy. I wish I could rise above and not let any of it get to me but it's hard when I have a whole committee of monsters in my head that are looking to prove their thesis that I suck.
I just have to keep telling that committee F you and pick up my guitar and practice again.
F you!!!!
I think I WILL go run it once before bed...
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