Yesterday was plain awful

You can say that again!

Yesterday was plain awful

but that's

not now

that's then!

(yay Annie!)


Although I'm not entirely sure how today will be either... Some sweet MUM freshman boy was murdered in Annapurna two nights ago. Well, stabbed in Purn, I think he died at the hospital... Some unstable other freshman just freaked out at dinner and stabbed him in the throat and chest. Everyone is in shock. G was eating dinner with me, but Ananda and Jyoti were there when it happened... yuck. I feel awful for everyone who has to deal with this, on any/every level, myself included. Earlier that day, the stabber had tried to stab some other student in class with a pen. THAT victim moved his hand up to block the blow, and luckily was only hit in the cheek/chin and hand, but that took 7 stitches to close the wound on his face! Apparently the stabber was arrested at that point, but released to custody of the school. They were going to send him home, but he got out of his room and went to Purn.... I didn't know either boy involved. both American kids, although the stabber had some Indian/Hindu background, although what that has to do with anything I don't know. One of the emails going around kept mentioning it like it made a difference... Maybe they just didn't know his name and wanted to have a difference between the 2 boys for describing it... whatever :P

here and here are what some students are saying about it... (the MUM forums are a continual discussion of personal points of view, check back for expanded discussions!)

My cousin called me from Cedar Falls where she was babysitting to ask me about it, it was on the 5 o'clock news up there. I can't imagine what this is going to do for the University publicity wise...

Memorial service tonight at the MSAE auditorium.

Healing service at my dad's church on Thurs. not because of this, but nice that it happened to be at this time. I for sure want to go.

Feeling VERY wide range of no-fun emotions - such is grief, but wow - angry, sad, scared, guilty, paranoid, frustrated, dis-illusioned. I don't want the admins to brush this off as not enough #'s in the domes, or too many south entrances left standing. Yeah, keep doing that stuff, but deal with the realities too! Please!

blah.

we come here to escape.
but there is no escape
I always say that about people who move from place to place, and end up with the same problems every time.
but some little unconscious part of me
really thought this place was special.
and it still is
but we've been violated
something tore apart the sacred trust
was it a real trust?
or a clever mask of trustworthiness
a denial of shadows that do exist?
have we been pointing mirrors in the other direction for so long
that we don't notice
the pimples and hairs that have sprouted on our own noses?
do we glue back the shattered mirrors
or buy new ones?
or is there some magic alchemy that can reforge them
into a double edged weapon of truth once again?