New info/spin on ankle spraining...
I told Stacey about it and she offered that ankles have to do with fear of change/taking the next step. She asked me how things were going with my boyfriend. I said fine, but I was thinking about moving out etc.... pretty much similar to what I've thought before.
She also said, and this was new for me - that right side of the body has to do with self-confidence type stuff, while left has to do with resentment, anger, envy and jealousy. eeeeeeeeeeeeenteresting.... She was like "Now I have you all figured out - beneath that sweet enlightened perfect exterior you're really a raging woman" or something to that effect, I shouldn't put it in quotes really.... but yeah. I AM feeling those things. ugh.
I'm really happy with my women's group thing though. I think it's going to be more and more awesome, it's just in it's baby steps and it already very cool. Part of it is making me realize how strong I already am. It's so confusing, to feel so broken down and useless in some ways, and like such a force of nature in others... Can I really be both? in one body? do I have to choose one way or the other? am I a failure in strength if I have so many weak moments? Doe the fact that I can't always do for myself what I know would help others mean I'm not qualified to make those suggestions? I feel like my brain has been sleeping for a while now, and it's waking up and has all these questions... What's the healthy balance between auto-pilot numb to everything and obsessively worrying about everything?
wow. buzzbuzzbuzz
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