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Suddenly my life is on warp speed or something and all my time is eaten away!!!!
I think part of it is I just need to get on a better schedule so I can wake up earlier and have more personal time in the mornings...

And once this play is over that will be a huge chunk of my time back, but it's only going to get busier as far as rehearsals go! It's starting to get a little more fun because I'm starting to get the dancing down. It's been very frustrating because I don't catch on as fast as some and I feel like such a klutz. But I was actually getting some of it tonight, which made it much more fun!! It's really going to be a great show, and my brother is doing such a great job. He has quite a set of pipes for someone who hasn't really ever sung before! and luckily the part is very forgiving as far as having to sing perfectly, because it's such a goofy and out there character that you can't help but love him! Not that C isn't doing great, just that he has plenty of wiggle room and no need to freak out or be embarassed about the occasional vocal goof.

Work is good. Still just doing sort of boring-y type things, but part of it is just learning the vocabulary and lingo and actual issues and how things even work there. And again, even the boring stuff is a bit more interesting just by virtue of the fact that it's working with neato pictures and stuff. And I don't have a buch of crappy parent issues with the people, in part because a lot of them are close enough to my age to be more like peers than authority figures I guess. Lila just started too, part-time-ish, so it's good to have another newbie, and one who is much better about asking the kinds of questions I don't even realize I'm wanting to ask! heehee.

My biggest freak out at the moment is my weight. It just seems to be creeping up and up, which is scary, and a pain, because none of my clothes fit, and I really want to dress nicely for this job!! And I can't quite seem to get the motivation to do all the things I know I could do to work on bringing it down. It's one thing to be curvy, but I know this is not healthy. Even the doctor was a bit worried about how fast it was happening, so it's not just me being vain... discipline, will-power, motivation, exercise, sleep.... I don't have enough of any of it right now. argh.

Yes, the whole money situation is messed up and crazy and not fair. It seems too overwhelming to me and I so I just have to focus on the now and try to chip away at my debts. Rich Dad, Poor Dad IS a really good book. I felt like it kind of only took one way of doing things - ie you have to do real estate to have money. But that might have just been my filter on it. I guess the main principle is to have money working for you, rather than you working for money, and one way to do that is to have real estate and always be selling it off, or have some rentals and get income from that. I just don't really recall too many other examples of how to make money work for you at the moment. I'm thinking I should read it again actually with another slant of thinking of what could I subsititute for real estate....

Oh my goodness! I saw the movie "What the #$*% Do We Know?" this weekend and it's really great. About consciousness and quantum physics and creating your own reality. Sort of documentary-ish with little bits of interviews from famous physisists (SP?!!) - John Hagelin included, but it's NOT boring at ALL! It's mixed in with sort of a story of one woman's day or two in the life. It tweaked my brain in a bunch of the right ways, very empowering. It also has a good bit about those water crystals E sent me a link on a while ago...

OK, better get to bed.