Sob...

I just saw Who Killed the Electric Car? and I'm really upset. Upset I never knew about the cars in the first place, upset the program was killed, upset at big business and selfish government. Upset at people who are motivated by nothing more than money and the fact that I seem to know a quite a few of them personally. Confused that they seem to be otherwise nice people. Upset at how many people don't believe that they matter, and don't realize how deeply and profoundly their choices and actions DO affect the people and the world around them. Wondering where MY blind spots are, and what I could be doing more/better. Puzzling over what seems to me a profound disconnect of being a miserable depressed heap of tears and crankiness so often on my own/at home, and yet being a cheerleader for other people around me, and being able to see how it's REALLY not that bad, and knowing all the things that could help them, that have helped me in the past... Where are those tools when I need them?

Grrr. Not feeling much hope for the world in general. I mean, great you made a movie about this solution that we could already be taking advantage of, but how many "new" people are going to watch it? Or is it all just preaching to the choir?

And I circle back again to feeling powerless. I see these things, I learn these things, I know these things, I feel these things. And yet I feel like I'm missing the step where I can transfer that understanding into logic that anyone would understand. Because I feel like these issues and ideas are just commonsense basics of life and that if people were just educated, how could they not agree? But they don't believe/trust/respect passionate emotions. And they have all these weird little factoid logic defenses that I can't compete with. How can I make a difference if people don't want to understand? If they are so selfish and defensive?

And then, who am I to think that MY point of view is the right one? How do I know that my beliefs aren't crazy, irrational or zealous?