Rollercoaster! Of Lo-ove!

Just felt like a song lyric title! But life IS a rollercoaster, and we're on for the ride. Ups and downs all day! all day.......

Took my mom to the airport, had lots of good conversations with her. Got home, called my dad's to ask if they'd call me when Collin was done, but just left a message. Erin took me out to lunch at Noodle House. Yummy veggies in sweet coconut curry with rice. YUM! Got emails from Sarah and she sounds good. Busy and stuff, but got skis and passes and all, so I bet she's gonna have a fun winter! So funny because people have been asking me about her and I was like "yeah, gotta get in touch!" and there's an email there! woot. Had more good conversations with Erin. My dad called at 3:30 grouchy. Had just gotten my message, but Collin was long gone and where was I? Why didn't I talk to him directly and I can't do this to employers. ARGH. Can't do it right. :P Must get better. I'm not TRYING to be a flake... Speaking of which I forgot to call Cathy. Drats. Ack. Then realized that I had somewhat flaked out on Art Walk stuff and scrambled with that, but both the places I needed to contact are NOT OPEN on Monday. What the heck? Did get a hold of some, but when I emailed Stacey there are now MORE people I need to get a hold of. Yipes. I thought I had the whole list. I guess there are always last minute things. Had my coaching call. Argh. No homework done really. Realizing all the stuff I have coming up about just getting myself down there is enough, when really I committed to the WHOLE course and that means the homework too. And that I had some of the same stuff as Brooke about being too busy to live. Which really both gets me off the hook and makes me un-approachable. But feels really lame and unfulfilling. But look at the huge breakthrough Brooke had about it, and how her clearing made a clearing for other people in the course, and I was able to facilitate that, just by listening and being honest with her. How refreshing. Still not sure if I've let go of the registration conversation schtuff, but getting better. So anyway, I am going to to my homework from the space of easy and fun and see what happens. MORE good conversations with Erin, we had some more butternut-in-a-box squash soup with my special touches. Shared our first meetings of boyfriends, some bits of the stories for the first time with each other I think. Went for a little walk to Chautauqua Park and ended up playing on the playground thing-y. Geez Louise the memories!!!!!!!! We really got into it though and the whole childlike imagination thing. Erin was like, "Does someone live there?" pointing at the restroom building. "Bathroom!" "Oh, his name is Bathroom?" "Yup, and he has FIVE mouths!" "(you mean like stalls?)" "Yeah. Maybe FOUR!" "We should go see!" "I was wrong SIX!" "Let's go!" and we ran back up to the slide. I think it was really fun and freeing, especially after all the adult conversations we'd be having all day. And we stopped to smell the roses on the way home. Literally. They're almost dead, but a few still have some really nice smells.
Then G came over and after a bit Erin said she'd go to bed, both so she could get up for dome, and to give us some time. Many good conversations with G! He told me he read my blog, really liked the bit about being my favorite person. :D yay. Had some honest stuff come out as a result of a homework exercise. He liked how open I was. Yeah, it's not so hard when it's for an assignment eh? heh heh. But also amazing to listen from a place of just listening, and not all the crap. And just hear it, and that's all really. And do something about it if I want, and not if don't want.... huh. so there. And it came out that one reason he wanted to apply for a second card was to get me a ring. Whoa! smack. and me telling him not to get another card, because asking for more debt is bad...... whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I mean, I still think that's true, the less credit debt the better, but wow. crazy. I'm so friggin lucky. Where did he come from? It's amazing. He's amazing. I'm amazing. I'm amazed. And lucky. And HAPPY. What on earth are we going to do with our lives? Ride the rollercoaster baby!

Ooh! Almost forgot. New Sarah Mclachlan! Drool. Want more. Also found some rather neat remixes on the site. How strange. but intriguing. and fun. What a totally cool person! and the new video is pretty hot too... I have too many idols. Not really. I'm glad there are so many good role models out there for aspiring young musicians!