Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Wow, One Year!

After a total wacked out meltdown (on what was it? Wednesday? Thursday?) that involved as a last straw, burning an apple crisp and then dropping the bowl of burnt bits I scraped off the top all over the floor and screeching at G about all of it, knowing full well it was only my fault I ended up sleeping at my mom's, feeling rather foolish, but not knowing quite what else to do. I was rather shocked at the whole experience, it was too early for PMS, and rather dramatic even if it had been. Still not quite sure what happened. G thinks it may have something to do with the war exploding over in the Middle East, my mom thinks I have addictive behavior patterns and should go to a 12 step group... I'm guessing I probably have some sort of combo of the two... ugh. scary.

Somehow the whole thing blew over (probably because G is pretty smart and recognized the ridiculousness of it well enough not to take it too personally - still no excuse for me) in time for us to have an awesome anniversary weekend. We went to this really cool old restored hotel about 2.5 hrs away (Perry IA) called the Hotel Pattee. It was originally built in 1913, and restored in 1997, with all the old charm and plenty of new convienieces (too tired to look that word up, argh). Each room has a different theme - Mexican, Japanese, Amana Colonies (where we stayed) Sculpture gardens on the lower rooftops that you can see from the rooms, spa bathtubs, all sorts of neat books and pictures and artifacts and decorations and original art and sayings stenciled into the walls, etc. Really awesome gormet restaurant attached, and we got a package that included 1/2 hr massages the next day. It was quite a treat!

Then we drove down to Kansas City that afternoon to see The Celestine Prophecy in the evening. While it had a few of the "groan" moments that these spiritual movies all seem to have - speaking to the lowest common denominator I suppose - I was also moved to tears in a couple places. And once again left wondering why I don't more actively pursue music...

Sad that there were only about 15 other people in the theater with us, although when I went to buy a smoothie, the girl behind the counter asked me which movie I was going to see, and seemed really interested when I tried to explain after she asked me "What's that about?" So maybe I inspired her to try it. You never know!

I guess this heat wave is all over the country. High 90's here with a heat index pushing the temps up into the hundreds - 108, 112, etc. Really makes me wilt - we have an AC window unit at home, and it was trying its hardest but wasn't quite enough yesterday. blargh. I hate being cranky and unproductive for such a seemingly simple thing. guess I just have to surrender and deal. Stupid global warming....

Was quite proud to take myself the gym this morning when my exercise buddies didn't call for the usual walk/bike to work. The AC at the gym made it bearable, and I got to come home and take a shower afterwards, so maybe that's the way to go these next few days... We shall see.

Driving back from Kansas City was along the same route I took when I was taking the Landmark SELP course down there, so it brought back a lot of memories, and also G helped me reconstruct my time line of a 2003-04 a bit. I'm REALLY bad with dates/time - I remember the year I graduated both from HS and college, but anything inbetween... fuzzy. So it was cool to look back and see when I got my car and when I took these different courses and remember different breakthroughs and see how it affected where I am today - financially, career, relationship, emotionally, etc. Amazing. Alexis was just suggesting a re-read of personal journals, I think I may have to follow her lead and look back over this blog a bit, inconsistant though I may have been with it.

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