The Possibility of Being Cause.

another excerpt from an email to my girls:
I was talking with my coach today about being cause for what happens in my life. Sort of a double edged sword, because on the one hand that gives me so much power and say in what happens, and on the other hand, if crummy stuff is happening, I know that it's from how I was being. But ultimately, since I am the cause of all I am being, I have the choice to make changes in the crummy situations for the better in the future. woof! what a thing to take on, this being human and cause for my own existence... Scary and empowering. It gives me a sort of adrenaline rush through my body that in the past I would have always named fear, but kind of just sitting with it, and feeling it, I realize that I could also name it excitement.... how strange and new, and I just got that rightnow while typing. far out. Super nutsy.
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Improv was fun tonight, although Lucas grabbed my ass, which I felt was rather out of line, scene or no scene... I'll have to mention it. grr. Crap, that's another thing I have to do, make up posters for next week's show.... Wonder if I can get Collin to do it....

Got to talk to Sarah today for about an hour I think, maybe a bit more. That was fun to catch up. She's coming to visit in January! And she's gonna stay at our house, since there are other guys living at her house, and not so much room at Steve's. I also called Nana, she left a message while I was watching TV. She wanted to find out if I had any tricks for making meringues - mom told her I made some good ones. We traded meringue recipes & tips and talked about the weather. That was good. Hope they work out for her. I think the thing really is to have the eggs be at room temp so they whip up better... I left messages for Katja and O'Nell too, but they haven't called back. Le sigh. And my laundry, tis all put away. Yay! not that the rest of my crafty stuff isn't still all over the floor, but it's much better.

Must find cheap way to get to Miami at the end of January! and get there early enough in the morning that we can make our flight to Colombia... Must look at budget, must start planning for how to miss that much work. Must study more Español! Argh!